As the title says, I decided i might as well ,make a list of most of the cosplays i might want to do. But first, the 'maybe something bad'.
I've kinda assumed for a while now i might have depression but now, more than ever, I reaaaally do think I have it. I'm tired all the time, it's getting harder and harder not to just break down and cry (which happened really bad at school one day, I had to go home) and frankly, i just don't have the motivation to do anything. which makes it even harder not to get depressed about 'being lazy' and being a stupid piece of shit pretty much. My grades suck, i hate myself often, i don't have any close friends (though i'm trying to work on that, there is people i like but its hard to talk to them) i have hoooooorrible self image, someone told me they liked me and i literally asked, "why?"...i hate my body, i need to start exercising or something but i just cant bring myself to do it. I dont want to take medication for depression and i know very well i need to handle it but i just...i don't know how. I need to start changing how I live my life but i really don't know if i can do it. A friend (Jade) told me about how she used to exercise every morning and that kind of helped me regain some hope for handling my weight (which i dont like at all, people say it's not bad though but i think it is) right now im trying to focus on grades and friendships, which is starting to fail horribly haha..... yeee SO ANY WAY COSPLAYS
Even though im fuckin BROKE again I still wanna plan some cosplays i want
(i haaaad 13 dollars but the 50th anniversary Doctor who t shirt was selling again!!!! i needed to get it cause the first one i got, the medium size was waaay to small, so it was worth going broke for
!!! ) sooo shall we start the list?
-Nagisa or Rei from Free! (ending dance jacket thing)
-Mikasa (maybe Petra??) from Attack on Titan
-working on a Jade Harley from Homestuck but idkkk its kinda eh
-Fancy god tier Terezi from Homestuck (cries because what is sewing)
-maybe Gumi from vocaloid idk (matryoshka???)
-considering throwin together a Human Nepeta from Homestuck
-maybe someone as a Fancy Dreamer idk who though (homestuck)
-maybe Chiaki from Super Dangan Ronpa 2
-kinda wanna do someone from D. Gray man
-also kinda maybe might want to do Mami from Madoka Magica
-possibly someone from RWBY (either Ruby or Yang)
-OOH someone from Hetalia!!! (maybe Canada???)
-really small chance, but i have considered some form of Jane from Homestuck?
aaaaand i cant think of any others at the moment :3 this fuckin list makes me want to cry, i need a job soooo bad omg (plus the binder i want for male cosplay is frick 60 bucks and i dont even know if it would work) sobbing**